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You sound like a really cool chick, who deserves someone in their life who won’t unfairly pull at your heart strings. But I understand the whole feeling of helpless that you could never be together. Besides it being super complicated, worrying about what your family thinks never helps.
I promise though, if you ever did tell your family and they truly love you, then they will do anything to keep you in their lives, including accepting you. It’s hard and it’ll take time. But fear is never a good thing in a family. I’m not telling you it’ll work out necessarily, but it’s better to be honest than dishonest.
It took me 4 years to tell my mum, and it was incredibly stressful. But once I told her and we talked (and still talk) about it, I think those years of silence and pain started to heal. It’s a slow process and we still say the wrong things at the wrong times, but that’s just part of being a family. And just today we were talking wedding bands and marriage and she asked me if she thought I’d the one to propose since I’m the more “tomboy” type. It was cute and we both laughed.
So, don’t give up on love or your family or most importantly — yourself.
You seem like you’ve got a lot going for you and we have a lot of the same interests. So if you think I’m awesome, then you must be awesome, too (by the hold transitive property thing). So I don’t know? Take a chance with this girl? Talk to her about it? Or wait for the next special person to come around? Because the way I see it, awesome people attract other awesome people. It’s just the way the world works.
And as you can see, I’ll always ramble. So I guess you’ll just have to keep on smiling. Success!
So… . I’ve been struggling all semester trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. Switching majors from physics to film was probably the biggest decision I’ve ever made an my life, but now so many doors are open that I don’t know what to do. I have this burning passion for people. I love to talk to them. I love to help them. In general, I just really love people.
So now… here I am, contemplating the rest of my life. And all I can think about is that I want to travel and help others. I want to live in Asia (preferably Japan) and I want to make films about it.
Because of the whole switching major thing, I’m looking at a 5th year of school. But there’s all these awesome opportunities to study abroad and have it funded that I thought… maybe I could do that? I looked around and Singapore seems like it’d be a really nice fit because it’s in Asia and they allow English speakers to study there. Their second spoken language is Chinese (Mandarin).
And learning Chinese is seeming very appealing to me. For the first time ever I’m starting to contemplate working for the Peace Corps in China. They have this amazing program where you teach English through Western cinema. Could you imagine me teaching Chinese kids about Hollywood and having them make their own video projects?
Plus, between English, Japanese and Chinese, I would be able to communicate with over 75% of the human population. That is so freaking awesome. It would also fulfill my service requirement for the Boren Scholarship I got last summer.
And then to top all of this off… I’d ultimately like to go back to Japan and work for their JET (Japan Exchange and Teaching) Program. They like to see work experience, which is where the Peace Corps would come in handy as I would be teaching English again.
And then throughout all of these experiences I would chronicle them with film, draw inspirations and begin networking for future projects. That way when I apply for graduate school in either America, England or Japan for an MFA in film-making, I’ll have an amazing porfolio, connections and most importantly ideas.
They say artists dream big. I’m a little new to this scene, but I guess I’m starting now.
I want to help people. And I’ve discovered I can do more good behind a camera than I can from behind a lab bench.
Marriage is not about the sex; it’s about the relationship.
Religion is not about my sexual orientation; it’s about my relationship with God.
A little 5-page piece about a character who is transitioning from female to male during high school. His only problem is that he hasn’t settled on a name, so he’s still called Kaitlyn. Really loved the father-son interaction that developed.
You know when an idea hits you? And then you don’t stop thinking about it for a few days. And then finally you do something about it, and it turns into this amazing cathartic feeling? That’s how I feel after I write a script.
I now know what I’m doing for Campus Movie Fest next year. I might treat you guys to some story boards later on today after I iron out the script a little more.
I want to direct one of Lady Gaga’s music videos.
This is the pitch:
A traveling American otaku meets a shy, quiet owner of a manga shop in Akihabara. Hilarity, misunderstandings and inevitable romance ensues. Oh, yeah, should I mention they’re both girls?